Tuesday, September 26, 2017

not a good sign

you don't have your head on straight
because you left it by the bed this morning

and indigo veins trace paper thin skin

hoping for better weather and shorter days
but you hate the weather
and the headlines

lost in a nonchalant smile
and a pocket of unnamed pills
laced with fever dreams

engulfed in red
but you're blue on the inside and it's creeping to the outside

battered knuckles, bloodied and  bruised
is the perfect color to match you other wounds

saying good morning to the dead
too busy counting shadows
to notice the sun went down an hour ago

poking bruises that showed up out of nowhere
sleeping with shoes on

these aren't good sign

Sunday, September 24, 2017

FIVE things i'm hoping to accomplish in october but the odds of that are slim to none BECAUSE I'M SUPER LAZY but i'm cool with that

1: BE A LOT MORE ORGANIZED WITH SCHOOL (and life but we're taking baby steps okie)

All my notes look like a blind rat wrote them and when you're taking a test it's pretty difficult, I just want readable notes that's literally all I want.

2:HAVE A BETTER SENSE OF STYLE

Pretty much all I wear is skinny jeans that are also baggy (I don't know why) and oversized t-shirts, which is cool but at seventeen I get mistaken for a Freshman so I should probably dress like I'm seventeen

3: BECOME OK-ISH AT MAKEUP

I'm getting mistaken for a Freshman and also my brother.
Not a good combo.


4:RUN A LOT MORE

Honestly just workout more in general but I really need to run a lot more, like a lot.

5:BE MORE OPTIMISTIC

Having a pessimist point of view is a drag.



Saturday, September 16, 2017

Nevermind

another misguided ghost with a fist to the sky
screaming in outrage about the cards it has been dealt

a semi conscious mind hoping to sleep it off for another night
headlights bathing his room with sickly yellow hue
and that borderline personality flaw in their mind
keeps you waiting in the line
we just see a empty list of self confessed loses
left out in the sunlight
bleached and faded
you're rushing to the road just to run back inside
and in any way, shape or form
please let me know if you're grateful
because i honestly don't know
you wrote your apology with colored pencils and primary construction paper
that's just narcissistic behavior
hiding behind kitchen blinds
because you're too afraid to open them and
you're no help
you're no help
all i see is a loose fitting t-shirt hanging off your already too slim frame
and there you go
rushing towards that busy road

Sunday, August 20, 2017

Aesthetic #9

Night sky, purple, lights, outside, summer nights | Twitter, Pinterest & Instagram: @TrustVital

Troubles coming for the free, man
We shake from shaking with the free hand
So stand tall, shout out with me

aesthetic, aesthetics, purple, soft grunge, water, First Set on Favim ...

Do your dirty work without me
Say you're best when no one can see
Stand up, catch fire with me

Pinterest: @mackenziemainka ❌


This kid's not alright
This kid's not alright
This kid's not alright
But this kid's not alright

www.thepaletails.com P U R P L E. Aesthetic. Purple neon colours. Water.

I've been sleeping with these
I've been sleeping with these thoughts, man
I've been contemplating singing them

This sky is my aesthetic  (had a band concert tonight, it was my last one at middle school)

So stand up, catch fire with me


ThisKidsNotAlright by Awolnation

Thursday, July 27, 2017

vicious

vicious
held my hand
and broke all my fingers


vicious
stepped outside with me
ans crushed my favorite flowers

vicious
i fell asleep 
and you tore off the covers

vicious 
stapled my posters on my wall
and ripped them down

vicious
painted me a picture
and lit it on fire

vicious won't leave me alone

i wish i wasn't so vicious