Hello

crumpled up

Acknowledging her inability to grasp the concept

that she is unclothed and unable

to defend even the smallest image of herself

the softest touch feels like clothespins

snapping and latching

bruising particular spots and inches of her body

swallowing herself in layers upon layers of clothes and blankets

praying that these pieces of soft, warm fabric will guard her

as if she wore a suit of steel armor

the house mirrors are covered with tattered sheets

she is in mourning

of the memory of unbroken skin and intact empathy

tossed and thrown out alongside the rest of the garbage

after they finished

crumpled under the covers, pretending to count sheep

just a nap

I just want a nap but I'm so cold

so I asked her to keep me warm

curling around my legs

warming my oh so cold feet

slowly crawling across my torse

caressing my cheeks, 

keeping me warm from the world

all I want is a nap

just a nap 

to rest my oh so weary head and stop from thinking thoughts

that clouded my vision all day long

starting out as a break from a very long day

but a day turned into a month and a month into a year

I want to leave her behind but she's so warm

and I don't know if I could function without her

I can't let her go

my bones will rattle from the cold

and she rekindles my faith in the night

windows closed, blinds shut.

I couldn't wake up before nine even if I tried

so warm

so wonderful

so inviting that I would never really leave

even if I tried my hardest

always returning even after my longest break

seven months

or seven days

I come crawling back

for just a nap

When you're near

whenever you are near 

i feel uncontrollable and unfathomable love 

that erupts from within 

at times it feels as if it is overspilling at the rim

of a glass that I'm cupping in my bare hands

feeling like light reflecting through a prism 

when looking at your being

and i feel like sunlight and fireflies when you call me unwordly

without hesitation 

lifting my spirits up with the soft fingertips and barely-there kisses

planted

 i'm wilting

and rooted in the ground

no longer able to pick up my feet

too many thoughts are in my head to make time

to figure out why I can't unlace my shoes

wishing I could fade into the soil

that keep my shoes planted tight

wipers

raindrops stain my car windshield

while interstate lights flicker in my eyesight

but i'm void of devotion

of driving towards the end

without stopping  to rest

my foot is stuck but i can't go anywhere

Joyful

Lovely bones riddled with cloth

whispers of rose

lay across your cheeks

a bright-eyed look and boisterous laugh

fill the room

as my body swells with an unmeasurable amount 

of joy from seeing your silhouette

dance upon the walls

as you hold me close